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The trials of selfishness
For me, it's always been easy to talk to people. I love to study them, figure them out, get to know their interests and fears. I have always known that not all people were interested in others this way. I've seen the way they ignore each other at the grocery, bump into one another and not apologize.
What is it that makes one person open hearted and giving, and another selfish and hard hearted? Is it the way they were raised? Is it a experience that turned them one way or another?
I have known so many wonderful people in my life so far, but have also known some truly selfish ones as well. You know the type... the ones who see something in your life they want, and will try to ruin your success to justify their failure.
For instance, a friend i once had was jealous of my marriage and children...they had no logical reason for it, it just was. To try and ruin it, they spread rumors, tried to cause problems, all that great stuff messed up people do. None of it succeeded, and during my friendship with this person i did see the warning signs. They would gossip about mutual friends, say horrible shocking things about them. The other Friends never found out because I was to afraid to hurt them. I however could not allow the same to be done to me... I ended the friendship, with lots of social consequences i could give a damn about.
Now here is my dilemma... by not telling the others and letting it go for so long, was i one of the selfish i so looked down upon? Most likely.
Life is complicated. i think we are never 100% of what we believe we should be... we are fallen and act accordingly.
